Book Reviews

Higher and Higher

Fiction, I feel, is a lifesaver in this day and age.  So many crazy and horrible things are happening out there that it’s nice to get away into something that may very well be equally crazy and horrible, but it’s fake, so no one is getting hurt.

Normally, horror is my go-to. The profane soothes my soul. This time, I opted for something a little bit different.

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Elevation, by Stephen King, is a baby novel that is just about as feel-good and bittersweet as you can get.  It’s about a man, Scott Carey, who is losing weight at a rapid pace for no definable reason.  He doesn’t look like he’s losing weight.  He looks the same as he always has.  But if he steps on the scale, he weighs 180.  If he steps on the scale naked, he weighs 180.  If he steps on the scale with fifty pound weights, you guessed it, a whopping 180.  It doesn’t matter how much or how little he has on him, he always weighs the same.  And the weight is only climbing down.

Along the way, he confides in his old family doctor the phenomena, moreso to have someone to confide in than to get answers as to why.  Truth is, he doesn’t want to know why, and he knows if word gets out, he’ll just be another marvel of medical science that will guarantee his last moments will be spent hooked up to wires inside some facility and studied like a lab rat. 

He also slowly builds a relationship with his neighbors, Deidre and Missy, the only married lesbian couple in town.  Basically, Castle Rock is super conservative (something I know and have experienced all too well), and the rest of the town looks down on them.  They don’t trust his intentions at first after he brings pictures of their dogs shitting in his yard to their doorstep, but eventually everyone comes around, if things are a little strained at the word go.

The more weight he loses, the less attached to gravity he becomes.  In fact, he’s worried he’s about to lose touch altogether and just start floating.

Leaving gravity on read? Ghosting gravity? Ghosting gravity.

This book was a curious mix of Thinner, also by Stephen King, and Pop Art, written by his son, Joe Hill.  I think it was good, but not his best work.  I got more emotional over Pop Art, I think.  I was more at the edge of my seat over Thinner (but I don’t think he was going for a thriller story, so I don’t judge too harsh on that).  The only part that made me feel anything was when Scott had to give away his cat.  Other than that, it was just a nice little story, and a nice little break from the real world terrors that are happening out there.

One part that got me that I still think about doesn’t even have to do much with the content of the book itself and more to do with someone else’s review on a Stephen King group on Facebook.  They said essentially they didn’t like it because they thought it was too political.  And I just don’t see that?  There is a drop of Trump at the beginning to set the scene and the main character’s stance, and that’s it.  Unless they meant Deidre and Missy being married?  I hope that’s not what they meant, because I think that says more about them than about the book, but there’s that.  I dunno, man.  People be cray.

Rating wise?  I’ll give it like a 5/10.  It wasn’t terrible.  But it wasn’t great, either.  I feel like the shorter the story, the bigger the punch in the heart, and this one left me wanting.

And because I like to scream questions out to the void that often go unanswered: Do you like your stories longer or shorter?  I think for me, it varies, but I’d rather read a good story that spans hundreds upon hundreds of pages.  I like getting lost and staying lost, because goodbyes suck.

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We’re Not Okay

Sometimes a book takes you by surprise.  The pages speak to you, laying everything out and leaving nothing unturned.  You read, and you have to take breaks in between because there is so much familiarity that it’s dizzying.  It speaks your truth, unabridged and unfiltered.

That’s what this book was for me.

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I’m Fine and Neither Are You.  This one was another freebie from Amazon Prime.  To be honest, I didn’t read the description when I chose it.  I liked the title.  To me, it captured the theme of depression.  I feel like a lot of the time, people who are going through some stuff will say that they are just fine when really, they are so far from it.  A+ on that title game.

I only had one issue with the book, and it’s a little complicated.  I didn’t like the way it was written.

Let me back that up.

I think it was written the best way it could be POV-wise.  Third person wouldn’t do well to show the raw emotion the main character, Penny, goes through at the loss of her best friend.  It just wouldn’t be the same story.  I don’t think there was too much dialogue, and I think the pacing was good.  It was fine for what it had to offer.  My main problem lies in the fact that I did not like Penny very much as a character, and a big part of that is unfair to say on my part, because my reasoning isn’t a solid problem with the author’s (Camille Pagán, btw) writing style or voice or some editing issues or anything like that.

I didn’t like Penny because I saw a lot of myself in her.  And as everyone who knows me would tell you, no one hates me more than me (sometimes I’m joking sometimes I’m not but it is what it is).  So to see my own thoughts and worries and keeping to ridiculous expectations and losing battles just trying to keep the peace was, to me, disgusting.  Vulgar, even.  Problems I’m having in my own life are just laying there in print (or pixels if you wanna get technical on me) (pretty sure you can buy a physical copy of it, though) for the world to see.  Make sense?

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That being said, while I hated the main character, I think she was well written.  I think the pacing of her mind in any given situation is right on par for what a real person (ahem, me) would be thinking.  Her insecurities and pushing boundaries and inherent need to get out of her current life are believable, and let’s be honest here, believability of a character is one of, if not the most, important element of a story.  I think it’s important to keep in mind that you don’t have to like the protagonist.  In fact, I think a semi-unlikeable protagonist is better than one everyone loves, if only because their character is usually more complex, and as a result, more interesting.  While I did not like Penny, she definitely piqued my interest.

Okay case closed we get it we get it.

There’s one more point I wanted to touch on briefly before closing this one out (minor spoiler alert):

Suicide.  Suicide and how it effects the ones around us.  Suicide and how hard it is to be upfront with what happened and how hard it is to cover it up.  While there is no real way of knowing whether or not Penny’s friend’s death was premeditated or just a bad mistake, it doesn’t change the outcome.  It leaves so many questions unanswered for the ones left behind, and it’s not fair for them.

I read this book when I was at a bit of a low point.  I was dealing with issues at work and at home and myself.  I was overwhelmed with the need to run away from everyone by any means necessary.  I don’t know if I meant to go down the road of considering self-harm yet, but left unchecked, I would have.  Life can get overwhelming when you set such a high standard for yourself, and if you’re left in your head for too long, things get messy.  It’s hard to explain what you need or the logic of your thoughts to anyone else, because that’s a mystery even to you.

I’m not going to say that this book saved me.  That would be a blatant lie.  But it did get my mind turning in a different direction.  Seeing my thoughts coming from a book from a stranger was a weird, tough love sort of eye opener.

Confused?  It’s okay.  Me too.

Overall, this book hit home in a lot of different ways.  It’s one that I’ll likely read again when I’m in a better place emotionally, namely to see if my opinion of Penny has changed at all.  I give the book a 7/10.  I give Penny a -5/10.  Just don’t like her, yo.

Have you ever read a book that you liked, even though you didn’t care for the protagonist?