The year is almost over. The time for that final push is almost over. Resolutions are about to become failures. Let’s all point and laugh together, shall we?
- Losing ten pounds: This could still happen, or it could not still happen. The furthest I made it was six. And then I went on vacation basically all the month of October, and it got back up there again. But in the past week, I’ve lost three pounds. So there’s that. Just seven more pounds to go. Ugh. It probably won’t happen. But I’m not about to give up the lifestyle. Not fail, but not win. You feel me?
- Keep to writing and cleaning schedule: What I’ve learned from this is that I can indeed keep to a schedule. What I also learned is that when I fill up my schedule so much, when something unexpected happens, I have zero time for it. Then I’m staying up until three in the morning so I can cross off an item. So this past month, I’ve changed things up and given myself less to do every week. House has still stayed clean, and writings have still been written, both plus some. I need to stop expecting so much of myself. Give myself a break, yo. Check in the win category, though.
- Take a day every couple of weeks to do absolutely nothing: This has been on the decline by a lot. I can’t pinpoint when exactly it happened, but it’s definitely not there now. Bad job. Fail on all levels.
- Go on more dates: Like last time, it’s not in the traditional sense. We spend time together Sunday nights and eat something new and watch tv. HOWEVER! That may soon change come next year. More on that later. 😉 Win, btw.
- Do more social networking for writing and less for personal: I rule at this. For the most part. I have everything on a queue, so I do a bunch in a day and then I’m covered for the month. I’ve been working on interacting on posts to get new followers and sell some stories, but it’s still some pretty new territory for me, and honestly a little uncomfortable and pushy-feeling for me. I think once I have something worth pushing, though, I’ll be more apt to do it.
- Be more involved with family and keep track of birthdays: It’s been a while since we’ve done a dinner as a family. It’s a mixture of some funky schedules and some tension between certain members. Good ol’ family drama, ya know? But things are finally starting to smooth over, so here soon, it’ll get better. It can only go up from here. As for birthdays, I’m awesome at blowing up phones with nonsensical birthday raps. It’s definitely in the win category.
- Pay off credit cards and car loan: Fuuuuuuuuuck. It’s going down. I don’t know if it will be paid off by the end of the year, but it will be close. Both will be close. But ultimately, it is a fail on my part. A big, fat fail. I’m only a little salty about it.
- Go out of town to see friends more often just because: Since the last update, I did go up to see them on a random three day weekend I got. It was some much needed bitching time, with some booze and Mexican food in there for good measure. I want more days like this. I’ll call it a stalemate. It wasn’t great, but it wasn’t the worst, either.
- Take Jax (old grumpo) to good doggo classes: I didn’t do it. I’ve had the entire year and did not once set foot into a good doggo class. HOWEVER. What I did do is have my sister show me how to make him behave. Eh, let me take that back. She showed me how to be assertive with him, how to raise my voice when he’s acting up. Is he the perfect, most well-behaved dog? Of course not. But it has made a difference. He listens better than what he did in the past. Plus, there’s plans for him to meet some other animals in the works to put his listening skills to the test. If I had it my way, we would have done it already, but damn, dude. Everyone is so damn busy. At the end of the day, though, Jax being bossed around by my sister isn’t the same as going to an actual dog obedience class. Another fail.
- Take doggos for more walks: Almost every week when it’s not freezing or otherwise crappy outside, we’ve gone for a walk. Sometimes we travel for a nice long walk, but most times I take them separately around the block. Not only does it get more steps in for me, but it’s easier to control them when they are apart, which makes for a nicer walk for all of us. Plus, they are better behaved when they don’t have each other to feed off of. Winner winner.
- Declutter digital and physical files: I have the same old file cabinet (you know, because of the credit card thing), but the inside is anything but the same. Folks, it is cleaned out. It is organized. It makes my little neat-freak heart so damn happy. Digital files have kept clean for the most part. I don’t go through them as often as I should, but it wouldn’t take more than ten minutes to get through it all. That’s way better than the thousands it was before. Winning.
- Locate my self-esteem: You know what? It comes and goes. It’s like day and night. It’ll pop up and stay for a week or two, then be lost for several days, until I pick it up and dust it off and repeat the process all over again. No, I’ll take that back. What this is about is self-esteem. What I’m talking about is depression. Not the same thing. No, okay, I think I’m better about this for the most part. Most days, I know my worth and I know I’m a hot piece (oh god please don’t take me too serious). But you know what I mean. I know I’m smart and I’m good at what I do (not necessarily writing, yo) and I have good qualities about myself. I’m loving and caring. I’m empathetic. I’m a great listener. And typing this all out feels awkward, so just take my word for it that I know what I’m about. Win.
All in all, it’s not horrible. I’m at 7/12 for resolution success. I don’t think I’ll check in again with this one, but I miiiight let you all know what my plans are for 2020. Ya know. So you can laugh while I fail some more. It’s cool. Builds character.
So. How did your resolutions go?
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